SCIENTIFIC EXPLANATION FOR LOVE

INFO

hi hi hi hi! im maya!!
what you probably need to know right off the bat is that I'm:
white
tme
able-bodied
technically a legal adult (18)!
and that's where my privileges really end, since I'm also:
not american/european (please keep this in mind!)
not cis with no ability to transition probably ever
not straight (lesbian and/or bisexual? :'D figuring it out)
poor (broke, even)
fat (ppl usually don't put it in their info but I will bc! if you're not serious about unlearning fatphobia I can tell and I don't want you around!)
mentally ill but I'm not telling ya what it is! mostly because I don't really know myself dhshfjI use all pronouns also yeah! except for they/them in english bc they don't give me euphoria bleh.
I'm also not really super used to neopronouns being used on me, I'm not sure I'll like all of them, but here are some that I'm sure I enjoy:
xe/xer
ae/aer
it/its if you consider them neos
.. to be updated ig💀byf:
- im super reblog heavy! I don't post my original content/thoughts all that often though I'm trying. and I love reblogging people and supporting their art!
- i don't tag swearing, caps and my fandoms (not sorry, if that's not something you're okay with you're just gonna have to leave) and I can forget to tag discussions of bigotry like fatphobia or transphobia (sorry!)
- I love making mutuals and talking to people! it might not end up in a friendship but a chat with someone who's interested in me always makes my daydni:
I don't have one, they're useless :D I mostly just block the kind of people I don't want interacting with me
based on my intersections and my pretty obvious political views you can probably guess who these people are¯_(ツ)_/¯

my interestssss <3- I've been into ace attorney for ABOUT FOUR YEARS NOW and still counting! this is an interest of mine that is probably never going to fade
- I also have a huge ace attorney au that I'm writing with a very close person that means everything to meee there's a lot of characters there that I find super fun and interesting events and I love yapping about it to ppl
- however I recently learned to distinguish between that thing and the ace attorney canon, so when I'm on tumblr, interaction with canon is mostly what I need!!! I mean there's something about it that I love in the first place!!! and I can talk to that person about our au any time of the day
- I mostly don't read other people's fanfictions sorry🙏 hard to explain so I'm not going to try. it really mostly has to do with the language barrier and that at some point it exhausts me to read in english, but not only that
- I enjoy the HELL out of fanart though I'll always support artists, I spam reblog, gush in the tags, eat your art, analyze it in my head looking for traits in your style that I like and all that!!!- wait this is about my interests- other fandoms aside from ace attorney might make an appearance on my blog, but I'm as you call tell not super active in them:
- the owl house
- fullmetal alchemist
- wakfu
- avatar the last airbender
- my hero academia (yea)
- some marvel things mostly x-men these days but I'm a bruce banner fan til the day I die- aside from fandoms, I would generally define my interests as
- writing,
- drawing,
- reading (no I haven't read 353546 books and I won't but I do enjoy it),
- music (mostly just my own playlist with barely anything new sorry!),
- media analysis (kinda! I'm not super good at it),
- roleplaying
- also i study conversation and interaction with people like science bc it doesn't really come naturally to me, I absorb and learn something new every day! really most of the time in the day I'm preoccupied with watching the world. analyzing people's faces, features, how clothing looks (as an artist), analyzing their behavior, interactions, my own interactions with them; I'm also a big fan of looking at nature the trees the clouds the leaves the grass the sky the birds and etc! I'm genuinely mostly trying to find joy in life and if it looks like I'm miserable it just means that whatever I'm doing isn't helping :( bc I do a lot for myself and I will continue to do more and learn and work on myself and everything. it's just kinda tough without any real support or psychiatric help- whoops it was supposed to be about my interests- some of my topic interests include:
- queerness, queer identities, queer history
- politics (in a very niche way obviously, but what I mean here is understanding the world through a systemic lense and looking for ways it could potentially be fixed)
- psychology
- my country's classic literature actually <3
- I also very often find myself enjoying poetry, in English too although it took some adjusting to
- mental health stuff! that kinda goes into psychology but not really
- meee! myself. <3 I'm a self-obsessed freak, self-proclaimed, but I honestly truly think that there's little things in the world as interesting as exploring your inner world and it's workings? I'm also obsessed with what kind of person I appear to be to others but that's something I genuinely can't know so the next section is going to be about me as I see myself from the inside!

SECTION ABOUT MEEEEI'll try to keep it brief since really, no one asked, but it will contain some of my sensetivities and boundaries and it will also explain my biggest interest in life in a way the interests section could not.- I'M A VERY CREATIVE PERSON <3 CREATING IS ONE THING I PROBABLY LOVE THE MOST IN THE WORLD LIKE EVER I spend my days analyzing the world around me so that I can later reflect it better in my art, I do everything I have to do in the day just so I can go to my room and sit around creating something or think about the things I want to create or think back on things I created and giggle and kick my feet
- I also love? need? like? demand? appreciate? attention to the things I created yeah this is like my number two reason for living. when I tell you about something I created or show it to you or post it I expect comments I expect to talk about your opinion on it and the things you like about it!
- I don't need constructive criticism unless it's something I can fix very easily without uprooting the entire thing I've just shown you. I am perfectly capable of seeing my own flaws and improving upon them later, I prefer not to edit things I've already done bc I fix things while working and I don't finish the work until I'm at least mostly satisfied with it, I prefer not to edit post-release and I will try to improve on my art with the next art piece, the next experience. yeah it might sound harsh or stupid but I only need positive feedback
- it doesn't mean you have to lie to me though and say you like something you actually don't if you ever try to deceive me or come to the conclusion that you can't be honest with me I will literally turn into the hulk. boundary number fucking one don't do that to me. just find something you can actually compliment and compliment that thing please.
- I'm kind and understanding, not naturally/intrinsically/biologically but that's what I practice. if you don't have time or energy to talk to me or to look at something I did or react to it it's 100% fine I will not get mad ever! if you're going through a rough patch in life you can tel me about it and I'll try to offer my support or at least I'll keep in mind that that's what you're going through and try to give you positive things and not ask much of you!
- I want to be a good friend to people and a good person. I'm genuinely trying if you see me making mistakes it's not because I don't actually care and have been pretending this whole time it's because I idk made a mistake. I can apologize and own up to it but like for the love of God tell me about it instead of just closing off
- I'm honest! at least I'd like to think that I am. I will often have to do things against my natural instinct but it doesn't mean that I'm being fake or something. as you can see I'm very very very good at baring my soul
- it doesn't mean I'm naive and childish and have never been hurt or had that used against me ill kill you if you assume that I have no social experience because of the way I behave <3 I'm choosing to act like that with my strong willpower
- I've been terribly traumatized and I will and have and do explore dark topics in fiction
- but also not only because I'm traumatized but also because I find it interesting :D
- there are like a million things I find interesting aside from myself I'm just a vessel I experience the world through so of course I'm important to me you know!!!
- and also I'm interesting too I think. :3 I love it when people tell me I intrigue them or that I'm an interesting person or that I'm smart. teehee

please tag:
- incest (I'm fine with people shipping it but I don't really wanna see it, and discussions of it in real life are even more triggering)
- sexual abuse, sexual assault, csa
- fatphobia pls
- graphic descriptions or depictions of violence please.. light gore in art(!) is fine but I need heavy gore in art tagged and any irl gore especially

favorite charactersabsolute faves of all time:
- maya fey
- iris of the hazakura temple... aaaa
- mia fey
- franziska von karma
- damon gant
- um godot. sorry
- apollo justice
- simon blackquill
- nahyuta sahdmadhi
- neil marshall (seeing him just makes me very happy)
- luke atmey
- adrian andrewsdefinitely up there:
- phoenix wright
- miles edgeworth
- lana skye
- pearl fey
- jake marshall
- dick gumshoe
- trucy wright!!!
- athena cykes
- aura blackquill
- dhurke sahdmadhi
- rayfa padma khura'infave characters of all time not from aa:
- alphonse elric
- amalia sheran sharm
- izuku midoriya... um yeah...
- wanda maximoff!!!
- bruce banner

thanks for reading